June 2013
thank youuu i appreciate the message :) been feeling down on myself so its nice to hear that
30 seconds after my parents go to bed

i seriously think this girl is going to think im a freak for copying her
im getting fucking anxiety about going to class tomorrow
why did i do this to myselfffffff its almost the exact same haircut im going to be so embarrassed when i go into class.
i know i said i was done talking about it but whatever.
also this girl in my class just got a very similar hair cut like two weeks ago and im afraid shes going to be creeped out that im copying her because we’ve started to become friends
okay its not that bad but its surprising and now i cant cover my boobs with my hair so ill always have to wear a bra.
cut my hair to a little below my shoulders

my long security blanket is gone and now ive got this awkward length
woooo i hope i feel that way
last time i cut my hair short (and im saying like shoulder length) i was in my senior year of high school and i had braces too and it just looked really bad
so im hoping im out of that awkward stage and can pull it off
think im chopping off my hair tomorrow
nervous as fuck but its just hair
….right?
i guesssss ill do some studying since im wide fucking awake
need to be awake in approximately….five hours. sweet.
i should be studying because i have a test tomorrow but i feel so worthless and depressed right now and i dont want to do anything. and when i keep reminding myself to study and continue to not study, i feel even more worthless.
i dont know whats going on. i feel alone and unloved and i cant escape it. and it fucking sucks.i spent years feeling like this every day and im afraid if i get stuck in this mood ill just keep dragging myself down further.
maybe tomorrow ill wake up and feel different but i know the rest of tonight i will feel like this.